Fear

It's amazing the ridiculous things that people are afraid of. I was watching Extreme Makeover: Weight loss edition this afternoon during my daily meal prep. The fiancé of the gentleman going through his journey made a comment about being afraid to fail. I don't think it would be anymore possible to understand how that feels. I think I am also afraid to succeed. The reason being is because once I get to my goal, what is left for me? Maintenance? Constantly fearing gaining all of my weight back? I'm pretty sure it's all of these random, ridiculous fears that hold me back each time the journey gets to be too difficult.

Accountablility

I have felt for some time that the one thing that I lack most is accountability. I start something, but when I don't feel motivated enough, I just place it all on the back burner. I have decided to try something a little out of my comfort zone. While I have been discussing weight loss for the past year and a half on my Facebook, I have kept it pretty limited. I have decided to start a page dedicated solely to my journey. I know quite a few people on Facebook that motivate me constantly. I hope to remain motivated and potentially inspire people.

http://www.facebook.com/TransformingAsh

Inspiration

I think I am going to go in a new direction with my journey. I love blogging, but I get terribly bored because I lack participation or general interest from outsiders. Time to do some research and once I am active in the gym again I'll make it happen. The tattoo is almost fully healed and I can kick the routine back into overdrive. Exciting business!

Hiatus

Hello (lack of) followers...

I know that I have been on hiatus. There are multiple reasons that I am not really going to get into. The diet has been on and off for the past few weeks because of our vacation to NJ, Mother's Day/Mom's Birthday, and my 29th birthday. Now that has all past and I am working towards one last obstacle... that would be my healing tattoo. I got a large tattoo on my chest which is about 4-5 days away from being fully healed. I didn't want to work out with it healing because I didn't want to get it irritated. I am hoping that I can get back to my routine after this weekend.

I was doing really well with going to the gym after work. Moving over to Planet Fitness was a nice step in the right direction! Having access to the gym 24 hrs during the week has been a huge benefit. I have also been able to focus my frustration at the gym. Hopefully I can get back to blogging and getting into my routine... I am slowly starting to get antsy without being able to focus on what I enjoy doing.


... the tattoo was worth it though ;)

50

It happened... I finally hit the 50 lbs loss mark. I have been working for this on and off for about a year. It was a lot of hard work but I made it happen. I will not go back to what I was. I will keep going unlike my success in 2006.

Brief Update

I am afraid I have lost my momentum for updating as much as I was in the beginning. I think part of this has to do with the fact that I am moving and doing rather than writing about it now. I have been experiencing much success lately. I am 1/2 from 50 lbs lost. That is a huge thing for me because I am right where I was in the middle of 2006.

That is all for now... I will post more as the weeks go on... :)

30 day shred

Completed day 2 of 30 day shred. I am pretty sore from all the extra activity lately, but I am hoping it will get easier. Joanna also became my unexpected tennis partner which is awesome. We have been having a great time with it! We are also beginning week 2 of our couch to 5k. Progress!